2011 in review: a year of changes

"Most days i wish i was a British pound coin" from the book i am reading . When i read this sentence, i was pondering what i was dreaming about most days. As a professional daydream, i have so many dreams. I wish i don't need to work, i wish i will never get old, i wish i will meet my Mr right, i wish i could travel the world...but mostly i wish i don't need to make choices. However, dreams rarely come true..that was how 2011 started.

If you by chance read my last blog 'my heart is an elephant', in the story, the girl was blocked in a metro station in Paris and went to champs elysees to count down without a clock for the public. Actually that was true, and that happened to me. But different with the story, i was not alone and with two other friends. If the worst thing on new year day means that the year gonna be better, I shouldn't keep complaining that freaky cold night in Paris without fireworks and counting down.

The first week of 2011 was torturing, everything was out of my control and i knew i had no chance to defense before March. Then I booked the tickets to China for Chinese new year. The way back to Wuhan, i didn't feel any excitement just full of disappointment. But 20 days later I came back Marseille with some hopes. I was kinda assured about my defense date and i got two job interviews. Life is filled with ups and downs. We should never be affected by downs, but when you were at downs, it is really difficult to see ups.

After twins and turns, I defensed in March and finally I went ahead of that 3 years. I had fun during that period, but I really need to get out of it. I was really happy. And then i need to decide where to go after. I had three job offers at that moment, but sometime it is not good to have options. As you all know, i end up with belgium. I would never think about if i made another decision. But in March, I even had a list of pros and cons.

Without a thorough plan, I went to tibet in May. I always wanted to go there, but there were always this or that stopping me. Why can we just do something without thinking? The trip was fantastic, and it was far greater than i expected. I spend my birthday there, which was the first time in my life without family and friends. I always said, it is good that a person can still keep saying this is the first time I am doing blahblah..the older you are, the rarer you could say this..isn't it true?

When i got back from the trip, a friend offered me a surprise present to Barcelona's music festival. How could I say no to my favorite city's music festival? I went to Barcelona with my jet-lagged body. I partied like a madwoman for two whole nights. And then the rest of June was about farewell. With the "high school goggles" (from Robin in HIMYM), I was so attached to the people there and the city itself. I won't forget the day when i took the train to belgium, I cried more than half an hour. People on the train must think what was wrong with this crazy chinese girl. So probably not because of high school goggles, I was in love but i just didn't want to admit. By the way, I don't believe love, never ever.

The work is Okay, the city is nice, and the people i met are lovely. The second of 2011, i keep changing myself to get used to belgium style. I am usually a slow person, but this time i must say i adjusted quite efficiently.

I went to berlin, and the first time i missed a flight..not my fault; i went back marseille, and everything was the same but different for me...am i too sentimental; i went to new york..a snow in october..and i lost my jack..time to say goodbye:(

I wish i could have resolutions for the new year...fortunately i don't have any..no danmmit even single one. I am keeping my procrastination, laziness, carelessness, dry sense of humor, and whatever part of me. Why do we need to make changes? Changes happen themselves anyway...as human being..let's just follow the flow.

It is not too late to make a 2011 review, anyway we are still in January. Moreover I am a chinese, chinese new year is coming.

I have no expectation for 2012. No expectation, no disappointment. The simpler, the happier.

My heart is an elephant

Lindsay got dumped at the last second day of 2010. She called her sister Lily, who was in Paris at that moment. Lily was waked up by Lindsay's call at 5am at new year eve, and she immediately knew that there were something wrong. In fact, when Lily caught up her phone and opened her eyes, she even didn't know where she was. She was completely drunk the night before, and ended up with a random guy who was hitting on her. Lily is completely opposite from her sister Lindsay, who is a super nice girl and never has any experience of one night stand. Lily was not surprised at all about her sister's experience before the new year eve. She told Lindsay millions of time "to be nice means to be dumped", but nobody can be changed. Lindsay was crying over the phone "what is wrong with me, I just cannot make a guy stay with me, and what would I do for the damned new year eve", and Lily consoled her "men love bitches, but you are not." Similar conversations continued over 2 hours, till that random guy was kicking the door of bathroom.

Lily is a self-employed photographer and columnist. She never stayed a place more than 3 months, and kept this kind of life for more than 10 years already. There was no single place which would stop her, as well as men. While, Lindsay had stayed in Chicago for 5 years. Within these 5 years, first she spend 2 years with an asshole, and then one year with a nice guy but terrible future mother in law. After that, she hadn't had a really long relationship. She was always the one who involved a lot and was dumped at the end. Lindsay never thought that there was something in common between she and her sister. After all these experiences, she knew that they both don't believe love.

When Lindsay hung up the phone, the first thing she did was booking the earliest flight to Paris. She arrived her hotel close to champs elysees at 10pm. She called Lily and told her that she was in Paris. Lily was astonished. She used to think her sister as a predictable person, and she would never expect that Lindsay would fly Paris to spend her new year eve. They arranged to meet at the closest metro station to Eiffel tower.

Lindsay wore her most beautiful makeup and sexiest dress walking out of her hotel. She could hear whistles around her and guys were hitting on her. But she felt disgusting and repulsion. She is a cute girl but she never used her cuteness to attract guys. She wishes the guy who would like to be with her just because of who she is from inside to outside. But all these guys at that moment on the street were absolutely stupid in her mind just because of her outlooking. However, Lily used her beauty superlatively and kept all her relationship strictly physical.

Lindsay couldn't call a taxi, because all taxis in Paris at new year eve were busy. When she hardly walked to the metro station with her 15cm high heel shoes, she was pissed off by the fact that metro system was crashed at that moment in Paris. Finally she was mad when she tried to call her sister, because telecommunication system was not working as well. Tears were filled in her eyes. Few minutes before her heart was an elephant when she looked down all those stupid guys. But now she was still that Lindsay, weak, sensitive, naive, innocent, and helpless. She saw an huge elephant was out of her body and run away. Only 15 minutes left to midnight, the only thing she could think about was going to a place around people, the closest one champs elysees.

There were millions of people on champs elysees, but Lindsay knew nobody. Moreover, there was even no clock to show the time. Lindsay looked her watch, which was still Chicago time 7 hours and couple minutes before the midnight. It was ridiculous to see all people around were looking at their watches or cellphones. She closed eyes and let tears finally drop down. She felt somebody wipe her tear, and opened her eyes. Lily was standing in front of her. No words to say, they hugged and kissed each other. Nobody really cared that 2010 had passed, and there were even no counting down.

"You know, there was an elephant beside you, therefore, I found out you in this huge crowd."

New Year Eve...what's that

31st, Dec, 2010, the last day of a shitty year, Lucy is sitting in front of computer and trying to summary what happened in the past 364 days.

She fxxxing hates new year eve, what is the purpose to celebrate the date going from the 31st to the 1st, it doesn't make any sense to her. But as a kitsch as she describes herself, she has to do the celebration, and she cannot be cool to stay at home watching a simple movie, or just lying on the bed. She remembered last year, after counting down at the biggest plaza in Milan, she and some new friends she met that day spend 3 hours in a taxi queue and the fxxxing club was closed when they arrived at 3am as some brainless stupids vomited vodka Red Bull all over her back. The next day, noting has changed, but she was in a disgusting mess and she waked up somewhere with bunch people she cannot remember single faces right now.

She also remembered the year before the last year, she was queuing six deep at a bar full of fannies into her eyeballs. She hadn't entered the bar at the last second of counting down, and she didn't see any friends of her. Therefore, she kissed a ballbag standing behind her.

Nothing ever good happened in the new year eve to her, but she was still planning to do something to kill her new year eve. She even bought a fancy dress, very sexy and fxxxing hot, but she knew already next year 2011 is not going to be HER year. Shit still happens like the past 2010. She probably gonna put all the disappointments, near misses, embarrassing moments, dead kitties, burnt dinners and regrettable encounters as what she is doing now 365 days later.

Then what really happened to her? She shrugged, and just felt nothing, which means it just fxxxed up.

She has a theory called "No B". She thought that in fact people will never feel disappointed till they can compare to the others. So if in our lives, by any chance we find A really bad, her suggestion is to stick on it and never try to find B to compare. For example, she doesn't like the city A now she is living, no she dislikes A, no no she hates A, then she decides before she gets a real chance to finally leave this city, and she will never go to visit or stay in another city B. Because she believes she will be pissed off when she comes back from B. She had a terrible relationship with a guy, who treated her like a peace of shit. Then she sticked to him three years and never tried to meet some others. This theory probably comes from her memory in high school. She never felt herself not pretty till high school, when all the other gals got some love letters from stupid boys but not herself. Caparisons are the worst things happening to her, and she used to evade from them.

She thinks people might sometimes treat her as a stupid girl, but she doesn't care. She knows that she just have a Peter Pan in her body, who never wants to grow up. She hates to become sophisticated, if it means that people should have double faces, lie each other and stab on the other backs. She wish that she will never be like this, but there is no fxxxing never land as a novel.

Anyway she is a false optimism. She will say to everybody, "2011 is going to be the best year EVER! Whoo!!!". Then let it fxxx, and do another summary next year.

"We start oaf wi high hopes, then we bottle it. We realise we're aw gaunnae die, withoot really findin oot the big answers". Nothing is really true, but nothing is really false.

My A-Z of Christmas

Abroad

Bored

Calm

Dawn

Eat

Family

Gingerbread

Homesick

Idealist

Journey

Kindness

Lonely

Momentary

Neckerchief

Or nothing to say

Presents

Quietness

Reunion

Saintly

Tears

Unawareness

Very very homesick

Winter

Xmas

Yummy

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Lessons from The Apprentice (4)

I am not very assertive, maybe because of my Asian philosophy, or my own personality. I always have a question lingering in my mind "am I ready for that?". So the question is whether you get enough preparation. Preparation is key to success. During the show, it always happened that some people with overconfidence less prepared and failed later.

In fact, I am definitely one in that club, although that question lingers in my mind all the time. I just never care about preparation.

Being passionate and enthusiastic is one of the most important things we need to learn as well. In our whole career life, there must be some things we are going to hate and unbelieve. We should focus on the positive and convince ourselves things we are doing have value.

I guess it is just too hard for me. Even outside my career, I just try my best to stay away things I hate, let alone career, you know how much I care.....However, we need to survive with those fxxxxxxxxxx money we can earn. Or if you are a pretty girl, maybe try your best to get a rich guy who can depend with, or if you are a cute boy, go to find a rich girl...I know all of you won't really consider about it:)

So good luck for myself. Job hunting continues....

Lessons from The Apprentice (3)

In fact I never think I could do better than those participants, but definitely there are always some rubbish participants in the show. However who knows that one day probably one of us, who are watching this show on our comfortable chairs, sofas, and beds, will make dumbest decisions in our career.

There are often some people with "everyone is against me" syndrome. This is definitely a sign of lack of confidence. Surely it is hard to build friendship in the work places, but not everybody is your enemy. So please don't try to gang up on the others all the time.

At the same time, there are usually some people with "everybody is not as good as me" overconfidence. So they take every chance to show their assertiveness. Come on, we need to learn to listen to different views. When you fail to listen, you run a huge risk of missing a better opportunity or idea.

We should know when to talk and when to shut up.

Lessons from The Apprentice (2)

Although I have no intention at all to get a sales job, I learned from this show that everybody is a sales when you are doing your job hunting. Everybody need to sale yourself to your future employers.

I always think of myself as non-sociable person. But that is not mean I am timid, introvert, and anti-social. Oppositely, I am extrovert, and love to spend time with people, but people I like. That is the point, only people I like. I don't like to spend time to talk bullshit with strangers, and cannot tolerant even one single minute of chit chat with people I don't like. Those people who are really sociable can do these, and can enjoy everything they are talking about. I don't have this talent.

But as in The Apprentice, even you don't like them, you must socialize with them. Some of them are good at in the disadvantage of you, and they can help you and let you focus on your own strengths. Socializing will build friendship not enemyship.

Maybe I am just too naive, and not sophisticate enough to socialize.

Lessons from The Apprentice (1)

Yesterday I spend half a day to watch The Apprentice (usa), I watched 7 episodes in a row. The more I watched, the more I was confused. On one side, there were so many excellent people in the show, and they are unemployed, I need to be more patient at my position now. But on the other side, looking so many excellent people are unemployed, why I am bothered to wast time to send hundreds of applications?

I almost cried in my little room, fortunately a friend asked me out for a drink. Sometimes we just need another way to catharsis.

But today I continue to watch again, and just feel so frustrated after one episode...I guess I could never learn something. My best friend in USA who is in the same situation as me is sending me message to courage and cheer up. Negative is contagious, but not positive. It is one of the common phenomenon in the show, which is definitely true on my person experience.

Note: from Audrey Hepburn

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your foodwith the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, revived, reclaimed and redeemed; never throw out anyone.

Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find them at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.

Tempting Heart….translation of lyrics

I believe I don’t know where you are

because I haven’t heart from you for long time

But in fact you are always in my heart, along with my every breath

I believe I cannot smell you

since there is such a long distance between you and me

But I turn around and you are just behind me

The past is past

It is too late to let me fall in love with you again

Clouds haut blue sky, if they cannot be together forever

It is better to give us courage to think of those memories

At least we could have right to embrace

You should know my tempting heart

I always want to see you again, and try to pump the others for your information

You are always living in my body, and protect my precious memory

If everything has a deadline

Sarah is a procrastinator, and she called herself "deadline killer". She waits the last minute to do everything, and she never breaks the deadline, which is not in her principles. Sometimes she considers herself not just a procrastinator, but a trifler. If nobody gives her a deadline, she completely losses her incentive, and she could spend whole day doing nothing, being in a daze, surfing on internet, or searching for all gossips. She could feel awfully, but she doesn't. She tells herself that, once she gets the deadline, she will finish on time, and all efforts are useless before that deadline.

She treats her relationship at the same way. She seems never be really concerned about it. It maybe because of non-deadline of this relationship. Her boyfriend always complains her not involving enough. She asks herself whether it would be better if there is a deadline for this boring relationship. The relationship is not the only thing that she gets bored, and her platitude is "bored to death".

She knew that there is something wrong with her attitude, but she hasn't known what that is till one day her boss yelled to her "what is the hell that you need a deadline, just do your own plan".

What if one day she got a diagnosis of cancer which predicted that she would have 1 year to live? A real dead line probably would invert her to another person. She maybe try her best to do all different kinds of things, enjoy everything happening in every moment, and not waste single second. But why she could only do these with that deadline of her life?

She still keeps her own way of life as before, and prays not to get a deadline diagnosis.

In fact, deadline is like a enclosure, inside which you feel save, but outside which you will see much more beautiful views.

World cup: overhyped..and only in memory

The final happened 5 days before. Everything was still clear in my mind. Finally I could sit in front of computer calmly to finish this article.

I was in Spain, not in Madrid, but in Barcelona. Even the day before, millions of people were on the street to show their disappointment with the Constitutional Court in Spain because of a sentence that reduces hope of more autonomy for Catalonia. After the greatest victory in history, millions of people were also on the street to show their excitement. It is Barcelona, an amazing city!

The last four matches were OK. They were like the endings of books or movies. Once you start, whatever how they go, you want to finish and know what happen at the end.

"The Beautiful Game is dead.

Killed by cheats, commercialism and greed."

I don't want to admit this world cup is insipid, because I enjoyed it. Everyday I had excuse to leave the office earlier and spend time with friends to have a drink and watch matches. But wasn't it insipid?

Several years before, it was shameful to cheat on the field, now all matches are riddled with Ugly Cheats, who crumble to the floor and roll around in mock agony if an opponent so much as looks at them the wrong way. Robben, Drogba, Capdevila, Ronaldo, you are a disgrace.

Hardly a single professional footballer on show in South Africa this last month exhibited anything resembling a trace of national pride. Bunch of millionaires were like clowns on the field. You could date celebrities, could buy ridiculously fancy watches and live in Armani-branded bubbles, or whatever, but when you were playing on the field, please play like soldiers.

However some teams are still deserved to be respected, Germany, Argentina and Uruguay. If there is only one hero in this world cup, his name should be Forlan, the one fighting alone from the beginning. The match of 3rd position, when his shoot on the frame, I guess I was not the only one feel shameful that the game was over, and I really wished the game could go on and on. At that moment, I finally realized the one month party was going to finish.

Those endless advertisements are off, scream disappeared, crowd dissolved..only those memories and daily lives.

By the way, do you still remember this bloody Nike advert, it is a really legendary, not less accurate than another legendary event, octopus Paul!!!

All the world, including me, was overhyped for the last one month. It is time to be peaceful to think about this summer:)

Key notes of world cup 2010... 4 teams 4 matches

1. I was a little bit late for the match of Brazil vs Netherlands, and the first scene I saw was Robinho growling to some one. During the match, this scene happened hundreds of time. He could save his energy for shooting instead of growling, probably could help his team stay till the end.
2. Shame on Brazil. If they play beautiful, I would feel sad when they were out. But they didn't, they lost their creativity on the field. Look at what Melo did, he stamped on Robben, who had operation to overcome testicle cancer. Could you be gentlemen to him?
3. I would never expect how excellent of the match of Ghana and Uruguay. When Suarez played like volleyball blocking the ball, I was screaming. At the end, his hands save his team.
4. When shootout started, Gyan was the first one from Ghana to kick the ball. The last minute of extra-time, he just missed one penalty. What a brave man. But his team was still out.
5. Well, another example of who kicks the ball first in the shootout will win.
6. After the match of Germany vs Argentina, we want to ask how many goal Germany will have for the next one, 4 again?
7. Manadona is an artist, and he has uncountable genius talented players. Loew is an engineering, and he makes all spare parts work as whole. No one denied Argentina players play fantastically as a person, but Germany plays as a well-trained team. Football is a team game. So we all saw who won the game.
8. it was the VIP presence at this match, FIFA President Sepp Blatter was present at the stadium for the first time, as was President Zuma. Socialite Paris Hilton was there, Leonardo DiCaprio was there, as were Orlando Bloom and an unglamorous-looking Charlize Theron, and the residence guest Mick Jagger. Soccer star Lothar Matthaus sat with Ballack. Of course Germany’s Chancellor Merkel came to support her team, and could not stop beaming. Ererybody was there for this big show.
9. If you missed the match of Spain vs Paraguay, you missed the most dramatic moment in this worldcup. Within 5 minutes, 3 penalties, and after, the score was still 0:0. Alnoso kicked twice, the one into the net was not counted, and the other one was blocked by the goalkeeper. What else could be more dramatic?
10. Spain bored me. We could imagine if Barca plays together with Real, this team should be invincible, but this Spain is not. Please, possession of the ball is nonsense, which is not the index of victory. Why don't Spanish player understand?
11. Till now, 4 teams and 4 matches left. I just don't like ending as usual..which makes me sad...

Key notes of world cup 2010...who wins this show

1. World cup is not a just simple sports event anymore. It is the biggest show in the world. Did you see C. Ronaldo's fake foul during the match against Spain? But now one surprised, he is C. Ronaldo, who is famous for this. But he didn't win the best acting in this match. Winner goes to Spanish No11, CAPDEVILA!!!! Unbelievable painful performance gave the opponent a red card.
2. When Netherlands and Brazil start to play counter-attack, there is no beautiful game anymore.
3. And coach Dunga even didn't allow people discuss their fantastic counter-attack. He said to the jornalist “Any problem? No? Then you are a donkey and a wimp” , when the Brazilian was picked up by nearby mics muttering abuse under his breath. This was happened after the match against Cost D'ivory. What a nice show!
4. Robben used his usual way: went inside of forbidden district fast, horizontal moved to find the chance, and then shoot. No goalkeeper could survive on this series of action.
5. Brazil is Brazil, even with occasion ninedays' wonder amazing performance during the match, they could win 3 goals.
6. When the captain won the flip of coin and chose Paraguay kick the ball first, I already knew Paraguay gonna win. According to one paper on AER, who kick the ball first has significantly much bigger winning probability than the second one! They could count this match in as well.
7. Villia's goal was after offside. I am kinda sure but not 100%. So please check your self.http://www.caughtoffside.com/2010/06/29/spain-1-0-portugal-2010-world-cup-highlights-video/
8. It is just a show like all the others. Someone laugh about it, and someone cry for it. At the end, everyone lives on their own life, just like nothing happened.
9. After 19 night, I am not get used to be without matches:)

Key notes of world cup 2010...one-night stand

1. Things happening once are not countable, for example one-night stand...such a lot of men are so into it, because it is not counted and equals to nothing. When elimination stage starts, every team could just deny what happened.
2. South Korea was playing well against Uruguay, however this was the first time they qualified from the group outside South Korea. What happened in 2002 was like one-night stand.
3. Could Donovan's scream "hi Bianca" and a kiss blowing to the camera save his mirage? We couldn't know because USA was too fast to out. If you don't know what happened about that "HI", just google it:)
4. Before the match of England and Germany, on F1 european grand prix at Valencia, German Vettel won Englishman Hamilton, when Vettel past the last line, red bull send him the message through team radio "Germany's best result of today". It was a joke because everybody knew there would be that important match following. But almost the same thing happen, English gave some pressure at the beginning, and at the end Germany won easily.
5. Blatter is against introduction of video technology even after so many referee mistakes in this world cup. We cannot have time travel to go back to see if Lampard's goal was counted. No one reject that Germany played better, but we won't know what if that happened. The same for Mexico. Blatter implemented the booking of players who remove their shirts after scoring a goal (what a stupid rule), but not for electric referee to make every thing more accurate. I guess there is just no rule in football world.
6. I am never be the fans of Germany, but I like this Germany team, at least they play as gentlemen (of course, their coach is such a gentleman). Not as Argentina, after the mistake of referee, Mexican players went in front of referee, why Argentina players went as well?
7. By the way, Mick Jagger was in the stadium. But England disappointed him again.

Key notes of world cup 2010...the third round of group qualification

1. When friend told me France lost the match against South African, finally I know French are so sympathetic. How could let the hardworking host even not win a match if they were already the first record as the host not qualified from the group?
2. I would love to scream as my Argentina friend for my own national team. But they are even worse than France. Fortunately I don't care anymore, because I was hurt before. When you don't care, there are nothing which could hurt you.
3. "Yes we can" was appearing at the stadium of the match between USA with Algeria. It is so American! And they really did and was the first in their group.
4. Oh, Oh, Oh...thanks god..Loew wore overcoat and scarf!!!!! I know Germany gonna win Ghana, so what drove me to watch the game was my curious about what Loew would wear that night:)
5. The previous champion was the last in the group, and the same as the second. If they were the best two 4 years before, we should doubt that worldcup or this one?
6. Lippi might be a good coach before, but definitely not anymore. The players he chose were not because of abilities, depending on the relation with him...all from Juventus?
7. Brazil vs Portugal should be the most exciting game, but at the end it turned out to be the worst game to watch. No one really cares about it.
8. Spain and Chili also had a tacit understanding. If both of them could qualify with that score, who would really play?
9. Maybe every national team should learn from North Korea. If lose the game, send to coal mine!!!! Then probably we won't see boring game anymore:)

Key notes of world cup 2010..the second round of group qualification

1. What impressed me a lot about French coach at day7 against Mexico? It was his pair of MONTBLANC glasses with a lots of logos. So if you cannot give any impression through any match, just wearing a pair of black frame glasses.
2. Gentleman and fashionman Loew threw bottle of water during the match Germany vs Sebia. Why did he do that? What do you think..of course, all about referee.
3. All American super heroes have the same experiences. At the beginning beat by the opponents, and then some miracles happened, therefore, they win. The same thing happen when American was playing with Slovenia. Did they get some super power?
4. Just one draw by Algeria, they almost destroyed a peaceful friday night. They'd better to lose everything.
5. Netherlands is not anymore the one in my memory. Utilitarianism football is worldwide. Who cares about how beautiful they play, everybody will just pay attention to the final results. Netherlands play so boring but they win.
6. I really don't like Anelka. For once, I appreciated what he said about that son of bxxxx. Was it wrong to say something true like in what happened in the story of "the emperor's new clothes"?
7. Eriksson is a tragedy man. Just seeing what he did in the past 6 years as the coach of England, there shouldn't be any country wantting recruiting him. But some african country don't believe it. Come on, he only cares about how many cellphone numbers he could get from big-boob girls.
8. 7:0, don't Portugal players have sympathy? Don't you know after this humiliation, North Korea players will be sent to coal mine to work?
9. Second round, players started to play seriously..

Notes of world cup 2010..day 5 and 6.. everybody rocks

Today is Dragon-boat festival in China, one of the most important holiday. In this day people use to have a very traditional food called ZONGZI (in wiki, it is described as rice dumplings wrapped in baboon leaves, in fact they are not dumplings, but to be honest I didn't find any better word in English, so they are dumplings). I had a very relax day, even it is not public holiday in France. But till I got all sms from everybody not exactly telling me the result of Spain..but kinda indicative, I felt disappointed.

Well, well, well, it could be worse, it was just the first match.

But everybody does want to ask what's wrong with these strong teams. Brazil was rocked by a team ranked 115th, Spain cannot win Swiss, Portugal just got a draw Ivory coast. Don't mention those tradition strong teams playing earlier, except Germany.

You could blame all these on the cold weather. Definitely, it was fxxxxxx cold at 0 degree in June. I guess every body saw C. Ronaldo saying that word clearly through slow motion. What he said in the press briefing after the match "I didn't do anything" could be a nice joke in front of slow motion. I bet he could say that 20 years before when there is no HD camera.

C. Ronaldo is the most expensive player in this world cup, what he can earn in a year is 100000 times more than the whole national team of north Korea can get in a year. But what he did yesterday was definitely not even 100 times better than north Korea. Shame on him, and shame on China national team as well. You know in 2002, China was at the same group as Brazil, compared what north Korea did yesterday, what they did was completely shameful, 4:0 with 1 shoot inside the frame.

Brazil sucked, with their terrible way of playing. I really cannot see they can get through till the end. I didn't see the match of Spain, but I guess it should be quite similar. So what we could expect, I really wish as crazy as possible.

The only thing I still hope to see is Loew, but I really don't wanna see Germany go till the end. Life just contradictory.

Everybody can rock!!!!

Notes of world cup 2010..day 4.. chicken chest

There is an old Chinese saying: Chicken chest, no taste, but it is shameful to throw it away. A similar way in English is "used book for sale bin". Now some matches for me are like that for me.

As I mentioned before I fell in asleep after the 20m of Argentina's first match. But I would feel sorry if I even didn't try to see that one. Isn't it like chicken chest?

I never like the way Italian plays, but they always keep winning. How could I abandon matches with them? But I always feel regret after the whistle of referees. But yesterday I still went to a small restaurant with close friends. It turned out not that bad.

Buffon sucked. When everybody still talked about how difficult for goalkeeper to catch the roundest football. He even didn't try to touch the ball, and he turned in one side with his torsion head and just saw the ball passing him by. He told everybody he broke his waist. Wasn't it an excuse?

At the last 10m of the match, camera focused on one guy in the stadium, who was the fan of Paraguay. He was standing with closed two hands and prayed sincerely. My friends who are Colombian told me that what this guy was doing is very latin american. They pray for everything. And later one of the players from Paraguay kissed the football before he kicked the corner. I was wondering whether this is the same meaning when De Rossi goaled, the first thing he did was running to Gatusso and Gatusso kissed him.

Thanks to technology, I had part of Holland's match from my cellphone. I guess 20 years before people even think about it one day they could have portable tv. Holland used to be my favorite team. They played pretty and they behaviour elegant. In some moment everybody think they should win champion but they won everybody's respect but no champion. Holland is like an untitled champion, which put more pathos on them. As an emotional girl, how couldn't I love this team?

But after amazing warming up before the world cup, yesterday I saw the worst Holland team in my life. That orange team is not anymore the one in my memory. When 35 years old player Van Bronckhorst brought the ball from their own part to Denmark's one, no other players from Holland could take the ball he passed. I just felt sad for this untitled champion team.

In 2006, the day when Holland was playing against Argentina, the other two in their was playing as well. At the end, Holland qualified with a tie in that match. It was not exciting match. But I did remember I felt like I wanna drink some beer. I should mention I never drink. I have a rare existing allergy to alcohol. However, crazy girl like me does have some moment to just fxxx up herself. I clear remember I was with other three friends in another city. I ordered a bottle of Henigen. Of course no more than half of the bottle, I vomited and my face was swollen up like a pig. Shameful story..but when I talk it now, I have smile on my face.

Japan won their first world cup match outside Japan. Etoo cannot do anything if he was alone. Last year Etoo rewarded watched to all his national team colleges. Does he feel regret to throw those money for nothing now?

World cup is amazing. I hope there is no match like chicken chest for me anymore.

When I write these things above, New Zealand got the drawn. And tonight the most mystery Asian team...north Korea will show up. I cannot wait to see.

Notes of world cup 2010..day 3..all about habit

Generally speaking, I don't like Germany men, I mean like..like. You know what I mean. Anyway it doesn't matter. But I must say, the coach Loew was the main reason to drive me watch tonight's game. He is such a man, who must in suit. He looks amazing in suit. I don't know it is because he was born for dressing suit or every suit just fits him so well. Sorry I know I am just a stupid girl who focuses on these things.

When we just talked about that it gonna become boring world cup, in which average goals per match 1.5 before German's game is much less than the average for recent 4 world cup 3.12. German caught our eyes, which beat Australian 4 times.

Day 3, real games start!!!

Germany has the tradition to beat opponent. In 2002, at the first match, they beat Saudi Arabia at 8:0, I guess that is the biggest difference I have ever seen in the world cup final stage. Asian team seems to be trampled upon by Germany. If Germany gonna keep playing like this, who will still remember Ballack.

I was calling my dad during the match of Serbia and Ghana. I found out it was really difficult for me to watch world cup alone. I tried to think hard the reason, then I realize it is all about habit for old time's sake. Since the first time watching world cup, I was always with family or friends. It is an event for me to spend time with others. It becomes hard for me to stay alone at this event, which makes me sad and manic. But since I am growing old and single, I guess I need to be used to. I feel sorry for myself.

I miss Double, who used to be my SMS man during the match. We commented on every stupid detail during the match through SMS from 2002-2006 for important tournaments, till the day I left for France and he went Indonesia for working. Every time when I send SMS during the match, my dad always complained I didn't share the things with him but to share with another man living in another city. I knew he was just jealousy. Today Double send me an email to ask whether I follow the matches. I really miss him and I am glad he does also. Football connects us, especially world cup.

I always start from the match I wanna talk to something else. Yeap, I was talking about Serbia, which was assumed to be strong. But it turned out what they did during the European qualification was just illusion. Without the most famous players, young Ghana rocked!!!

Day 3, 3 red card in 3 games. By the way, I wrote I hope Algeria would loss the game. But I mean I felt guilty to come true. Anyway, I watched the collection, both Algeria and Slovenia really sucked. They really ruined the match. Fortunately, teams like Holland, Brazil and Spain are coming out.

After the mistake of Green, English goalkeeper, the goalkeeper of Algeria made a stupid fault as well. Jabulani, the match ball, "brings joy to everybody" except goalkeepers.