How time flies, almost a year. If my friend didn't put a long farewell note on facebook, i didn't even think about it is almost a year. One week later, it is my one year anniversary in Belgium.
I still remember the day when I was leaving Marseille. I cried almost an hour on the train. My friend who went to the train station was calling me after she saw me crying, but I just cannot speak a word and sobbed sadly. I do believe I hadn't cried so badly for at least two years. All loves, repugnance, emotions and hatred just came out when the train was starting to move. Tears were my best way of catharsis.
I love what I have done in Marseille, but I know that was the best moment I should leave. Most of my friends left or were about to leave that town, I suxed in relationship with my boss and my personal life, I was fed up by French bureaucracy and language itself, i was tired of chaos and unsafety, and i was like a french complaining about my "miserable" life. And then Belgium?
I never thought about I would end up in Belgium, and I even didn't know anything about Antwerp before I moved here. However life is following the flow. We don't need to think about it.
Nothing is perfect, so is Antwerp as well. But right now I appreciate what it is at present.
For the last almost 365 days, the most important thing I have learned was "let it go" - forgive so you can be forgiven. I used to linger on things for quite long time till making things certain. Now I know it is useless effort why not just "let it go". Life is full of burden, it doesn't matter to drop some packages. Well, I am still learning it. To really do it is not that easy. But I am trying.
I don't want to be sentimental. Sometimes I just really have good memories. A year...
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